I've got it bad.

I have a semi back rub phobia, self diagnosed. And truly it's not really even a disease, because I just goggled it, and nothing of the sort was present… Instead, relationship advice and "social phobia" came up, and I don't quite see how those are related to my fear of sorts. But Skyler informed me that you get friends by giving people back rubs, so maybe there really is more of a connection than I thought. And maybe I have social phobia and maybe I'm weird. And maybe I'll eventually crack. But probably not. It's too hard for me.